its not like it matters anyway
its 4am now, and i still cant sleep
i feel like crap... just like icky, and i dont know why
i felt fine before, i went to this cute play with liz.
but maybe im over tired. but thats impossible when you sleep all day
i feel like such a waste. "a waste of breath, of space, of time."
i need a job. i hate borrowing money from my mother. blegh
ihave nothing of value to say
besides my mind is too active
and i feel like an emotional disaster
for no particular reason
and if anyone knew the one thing i want right now
im sure theyd smack me in the face. really really hard
cuz i know id deserve it
but why cant i see it?
i want to drive to maryland. maybe then life will be okay.
i remember writing something about that awhile ago, back when i was in hartford. yea, i was sitting in sociology. stairing out the window,
at least those classrooms all had windows.